it is a late night quandry

a lot of people come to me for advice, i don't know why, i'm not exceptionally wise to the ways of the world. but what happens when the advice giver is stuck with a problem that she can't figure out the answer to. no matter which side i look at it or how i weigh it or how many times i do any of that i cannot come up with a solution to these problems, yes there are a few of them. I've talked to the people i get advice from and even they cannot give me the answer i am looking for. and so it is almost 1 o'clock in the morning and i am sitting here typing to the void that is this blog wondering what i should do. i feel zapped of all energy but yet i cannot sleep. i feel like a piece of drift-wood searching for the shore. i feel like that little chicken or whatever it was wandering around the farm asking random animals "are you my mommy?". my emotional energy is gone and my mental capacity for compassion and understanding is spent. i think i just really, really need to go to sleep and try again tomorrow.