it is the holidays

Warning: if you chose to read this post you must refrain from all comments about "being happy while single". I AM happy while being single so if you can't handle one of the many facets and emotions of me, my life or human nature than please don't continue to read. All of this is to say....

One day I want to enter into the Christmas season with someone's hand to hold while we walk in the snow. That's all. 

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Oh for a life of clear skies and open paths. But then of course I would miss the magic in the rain, the freedom in the wind and the adventure in the mountain. 

it is

Oh the blogger in me couldn't hide forever I guess. I moved across the country. Did you know that? Crazy isn't it. Especially crazy since I didn't know anything about what I was doing. Though someone once told me being impulsive was one of my greatest flaws. Though my father told me your greatest flaw is also your greatest strength. And he's right. In fact both of them were right. In my impulse I found myself quite alone. I felt alone in KC but I had no idea what actual complete loneliness was like. I probably don't fully understand it in fact. But I have found something out. When you are alone you have a choice. You can either A) surround yourself with meaningless people to keep you from realizing you're alone B) be depressed and wallow C) look yourself in the mirror and come to grips with who you really are. I actually did all of the above in the past 8 months. In the end of this journey, though in truth we all know it's far from over, I have found myself. More of myself than I bargained for. I've faced my demons and found my light. It's exciting I've gotta say. But I still haven't found a partner to fight beside through the madness and beauty of this world. I am thinking about the past loves that I had. The ones I thought were going to turn into forever. And I'm realizing one thing. They all felt overwhelming. Is that right? Not that it was a bad overwhelming but in each moment I felt that love for each man it washed over me like a tsunami. 

So tonight that is the question I am pondering is romantic love overwhelming? 

My front portch has been majorly bothering me. So after looking around and finding plenty of $100 dollar options I settled on this $35 choice. Crates from craft store and some leftover paint. Boom. Beach accessories organized. Niece/nephew beach toys tucked nicely and beach towels stored. 

My little condo came complete with old paint and ugly fixtures. A fresh coat of paint did wonders but then the outlet covers looked really awful so a quick DIY on the cheap...spray paint. Clean fresh and new looking covers totaling $5...boom

When I went to Lowe's today I found two fire pots for $3 a piece!! Bonus! So once home I whipped up a fresh flatbread and what goes better with pizza than beer, Italian beer that is ;-)

5k #7!

And my best time!!! So surprised because I haven't run and I thought I totally tanked it! Ha!! Take that! Now if I can just keep to a running schedule.....

Wicked Hot Run MB finishing time 37.51! 

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Location:N Oak St,Myrtle Beach,United States

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it is the beginning

I've decided it be better for me to write out the next leg of my journey in a note book so no more lengthy diatribes regarding broken hearts and life questions for at least this next year. However to continue in the spirit of blogging and sharing my humdrum life I am going to entertain you with a photo journal. I will every day post a picture that shows a piece of who I am. I hope you enjoy! Love to you all! <3 B


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it is all fine

I have come to a brilliant realization.....At the end of everything it all will be fine. The trouble with knowing this? Now I have to find the option that will be the best of all the "fines" :-).




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it is the quandary of a developed nation

You know what the problem is with knowing you'll be ok? It leaves too many options. I will be ok with either decision I make. My life will generally be the same. I will most likely have a job. I will have family. I will be alright. But which would be better? But in the end of course it's better than being an aids baby in Africa. Guess I should just take more deep breaths.


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it is a choice... or is it?

I'm driving to HOTlanta, my next stop while moving to SC and I have successfully kept myself from thinking about anything until this very moment. Prompted by a song that discusses the song writer's lack of belief in forever love I began to think about whether you have to choose between your belief in love or marriage? Of course in a perfect world wouldn't that bubbly can't keep your hands off each other love last forever? But it's not and it doesn't. So I see couples who have been married for a long while and each of them has changed and sure they love each other and car for one another but it is different. I wonder if they believe in the lasting testament of love more or less after 20,30,50,60 years of marriage? Or do they believe in the sacred rite of marriage more than true love? And so do we have to choose between the two? And if we so which one should we?
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You might delay but time will not.
-Benjamin Franklin


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it is not impossible, just improbable

I know I am a bright, beautiful, talented, divinely created woman. I also realize I am a very silly girl. For this I am both sorry for and love myself for. I am sorry for my silliness because it often leads to disappointment, I believe the improbable to be possible quite readily. On the flip, I love myself for it because the improbable is not impossible which people who have lost their silliness often forget.



Impossible, for a plain yellow pumpkin to become a golden carriage?
Impossible, for a plain country bumpkin and a prince to join in marriage?
And four white mice will never be four white horses?
Such falder-all-and-fiddle-dee-dee of course is impossible!

But the world is full of zanies and fools, Who don't believe in sensible rules, And won't believe what sensible people say, And because these daft and dewey-eyed dopes keep building up impossible hopes, Impossible things are happening everyday!

Shrimp Diablo

Yum! My friend Tarah came over and I made a special topping for our fresh pasta. Sautéed shrimp in a spicy buttery sauce.

I took two shakes of ground cayenne pepper and put it into hot olive oil in a skillet. Tossed in 2 tablespoons of minced garlic two Anaheim chili peppers and one seraño chili (diced) and a pint of sliced mushrooms. I let that cook for a bit then added a pound of shrimp. Once the shrimp was cooked I threw in a diced tomato, two tablespoons of butter 1/4 cup of shredded Parmesan and 1 teaspoon of salt. Let that puppy simmer til it was nice and tasty and viola!
Picture to come later :-) Enjoy!!

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5k #6!!!

Chocolate Rush 5k, trail run. Fun run with my friend Joanne. One of my last runs in KC :-(. It was cold!!! And had ice patches along the trail. Even though my time was within my average I felt like a did a personal best and actually jogged more than walked :-)

Final time 39:36



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5k #4!

31st annual Groundhog Run in Kansas City! It was really hot in the caves! My face got all red and sweaty- gross! So glad I went with the skirt not long pants!
40:32 final time.













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5k #3!

Battle of the Bean 5k!
Time: 39:18 not bad for not having run since the Gobbler Grind so I'm pretty happy about that time :-)












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Wine #3

Simi Landslide Cabernet. We had a wine tasting on this guy at work the other day so I thought I'd pass on the knowledge of a professional wine-o :-).

The Simi winery was opened by two brothers in the late 19th century Sonoma Valley California. They left the business to their daughter/niece who continued the family tradition. She successfully made it trough prohibition using a sacramental permit. After prohibition she opened the fist wine tasting rooms in Sonoma Valley using one of her room sized redwood barrels (which I really hope will exists because I would LOVE to see that someday!).
Cabernet being a thicker skinned grape is higher in tannins than other grapes which leaves the dry taste on your tongue. This Cabernet has lovely blackberry hints with some spice black pepper on the finish.
Now...how fancy do I sound? Lol. It actually is a nice wine and since it was grown in a location where at one point there was a landslide it's a bit earthy. Cool eh?



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Wine #2

Since I've been broke lately I've been trying lovely $10 bottles of wine. And I have to say I love this vintner! I had their zinfandel at SPIN Pizza the other day and thoroughly enjoyed this cab. Robust, sweet and leaves subtle aftertaste. Almost sweet.


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Wine #1

Full bodied. Lots of strength to this wine. Very peppery. Pair with steak, bolognese or lasagna.


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